Going Through the Motions

Last night I played my normal wednesday night gig at Gaetano's. When I got there I was not in the mood to play or sing. Mostly because I was sick but also because I had a feeling it was going to be unreceptive. As I started I immediately knew my voice was off and my guitars were out of tune...Bummer. But I squeaked on just to finish the night in normal fashion. With only a few personal highlights from the evening I quickly packed up and headed to my sick wife waiting at home. On the drive, I literally felt like the night was a bad dream. I think part way through the first song the function in my brain that makes me aware shut down and I became a robot. All the chords on my guitar were basic and all the notes I sang were standard. I turned on autopilot and played for three hours. I guess I just need to understand that there are always going to be days like this. No matter how much I enjoy the Jobs that I have or the life that I have been given, there are going to be times when you hate everything and everyone, its just part of our nature(or maybe just mine). This morning though I woke up with hope. Hope that the next gig I play will inspire others along with myself. Onward, Peace!